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My name is Kayla Taylor I am 21 years old and I am transgender,
I have always struggled with who I was, from my earliest memory I knew I was not a boy.
I never like boy things and was always playing with the girls in school.
This did not seam like a problem until middle school.
These are only a few of the names I was called.
I went home every day and locked myself in my room, and laid in my bed crying
wondering what was wrong with me.
I had no friends
At 15 I tired my first suicide attempt with some of my moms sleeping pills
It did not work and no one even noticed I had tried.
I became completely withdraw
I stopped feeling
Two years later I was kicked out of my parents home
They thought I was gay
Some good friends took me into there family
They adopted me
For the first time in my life I felt like I had a place I belonged
I still felt wrong in my own body but I had learned to ignore this
I started college one year latter and began to live on my own
While I was doing research for a paper I came across the term transgender
The more I read the more I realized that this is what was wrong
This is why I never felt like my self and others felt the same
It took me another 2 years before I finally came out to my new family
They told me that god does not make mistakes and if I went down this road I would lose them.
I was torn apart how could I be happy with transitioning if I would lose the people I loved so much.
How could I turn my back on my faith
I became extremely depressed and began skipping meals
And when I did eat I would through it back up….
I felt discussed with my body
And some how I could no longer bury my feelings.
I decided that there was only one choice left
I chose to take my life
I knew that if I lived I wouldn’t be able to stop my self from transitioning
And that in the long run my death would hurt those I cared about less
I drove myself to an empty parking lot and with tears in my eyes took 400 over the counter sleeping pills
1 ½ weeks latter I woke up from a coma in the hospital
the first thing I saw was my adoptive family standing over me with tears in there eyes
they told me that they loved me
that they might not understand but they would try
that I was to important to them to lose so pointlessly
I am still struggling
And they still have a hard time fully supporting me
But they are trying
Life does get better so hold on
And never forget that there is some one who cares.
I do not own the music in video, it is by skillet.
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2. yours to hold